Time with the besties!!

I Just had the best weekend in a long time! Erica and Lisa came to Ca to visit! It was a quick stay but I enjoyed every moment of it! We started of the weekend on friday with a trip to Disneyland.  It was way fun. We found some fun photo oppritunities in the SM line. It was great. On saturday we spent a day in huntington soaking up the sun. It was awesome.. even though we didn't get much color. For lunch we went to a famous resturant that will remain unnamed.. it was great!  Then we spend home on the 91 to make it to a baptisum at 5! We made it to my house by five and still needed church clothes. We changed into church clothes in less than four mins and were out the door it was awesome. Suprisingly we made it to the baptisum before dekota was baptized. It was sweet. But we smelled like beach... oh well.. Saturday night was followed by a slumber party at my house that included heartattaking the bishop... lol it was great fun. Sunday I had the oppritunity and of singing in church which was really cool. The girls then left sacrament to drive back to idaho :( it was a quick but amazing trip! We plan to going beach camping on our next adventure!! 

Climbing Through Life

This Week I got to spend a day with my family! And it turned out to be one of the best days I have had in a long time!  We spent the day at Bass Pro Shop  out by Victoria Gardens.

But the event of the day that really sparked my surge of creativity was my climb up the rock wall. My little sister tatelyn and I had the chance to climb up a very tall rock climbing wall. Me being the thrill seeker I am said yes without hesitation. Tatelyn decided to go first up the wall. She got all harnessed in and went up the wall slowly but surely. Her second time up was a little quicker but you could still see certain spots where she would stuggle. Then it was my turn. I walked up got harnessed in and grabbed the first holes I could in the steep wall. Right away I knew this wall was going to be a lot harder than pervious walls I had climbed. I started to gain a little bit of hight. Then the fear set in. What if I wasn't strong enough to get up this wall? What if I feel? My family would never let me live it down! What if I took forever to get up to the top? All the worries hit me at once and my legs began to tremble. I slowly looked up and determined there was no going back now. I had to prove I could get up the wall just like my little sister! The shaking in my legs made it a lot harder to push my self up. Each time I had to let go of a safe spot I had found and reach for a higher foot hold I wasn't sure if I could get there safely. I almost fell once. My foot missed the foot hold I was blindly reaching for, and all my body weight hit my arms. I suddenly found I was a lot stronger than I gave myself credit for. My family cheered my one the whole time, my dad gave me constant direction on where the next step would help me get to the top. Finally I made it to the top! After walking away with a few scrapes and bruises, I remembered a valuable lesson about life. In the begging when Heavnly Father asked us who want to follow Christ's plan we all jumped at the oppritunity. Once we arrived here on earth we learned that life was not as easy as we thought it would be. Satan begins to plant fear and worries in our hearts. Each time we would begin to feel comfortable with the spot our life was in satan would tell us we couldn't do it. Along the way we slip and get scraped up and learn we are a lot stronger than we think. We also have our father in heaven to guide us. He will show us the best direction for us to continue onward. If we persist and endure to the end we will be able to live with our father again. 

Trusting In The Lord

So I guess it's been a while since I have shared my thoughts with the world. Let me explain my current status. I moved home to beautiful sunny California a week or so before christmas. I decided to move home to prepare to serve a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day saints. My first priority after settling in was to find a full time job. I have been home for five weeks now... and I am still unemployed. I am quickly learning with the economy they way it currently is it is almost impossible to find a job. So after a lot of stress and fear I am finally turing to the lord and asking for help. I am starting to realize that I will not be able to find a job without divine intervention. I have a testimony that if we ask the door will be opened unto us. I also know that faith and fear can not coexist. So hear I go, I am going to have faith and trust in our lord and savior Jesus Christ. He knows the desires of my heart, and I have faith he will lead my life where it needs to be. I also know that he loves all of god's children. I know that he lives! 

Rexburg Idaho, The Dating Watering Hole of The LDS World.

I attend BYU-Idaho, otherwise known as, BYU I do. One of the biggest things I learned from this university is that my goal before leaving this campus is to have a ring, get married and two children. I am not saying that I disagree with the fact that eternal marriage is a step to our eternal salvation i am just saying it is a little much.

 Let me explain to you my dating life since my attendance here at the lovely byui. To start off I moved to Rexburg after a guy. I know that is a very lame excuse but it is my story. I fell in love with a boy from Georgia in the summer of 07. When we became separated at the end of the summer I was determined to follow him wherever he might go. I applied to byui and was accepted. I was up in Rexburg by Jan 08. It was quick but it was the determination fueled by young love that made everything fall into place. After ariving in rexburg I shortly noticed that there was a common trend that floated around all the advertisements in rexburg. ENGAGEMENT RING ADDS. Me and my current lover had talked multiple times about marriage and being in this new land of happily ever after made my imagination run wild. I dreamed and dreamed about how he was going to purpose. Each day someone new would ask me, has purposed yet and the answer was always no. Finally after a very awkward valentine's day and another month that followed my first love left my life permanently. 

Fast forward to July of 08. I finally started dating again. This time with a 12 foot wall around my heart protecting it from all damage. My summer shortly became one to remember. I was still recovering from a broken heart and i was ready to get out there and be the heart breaker i had grown up as. I started dating three boys. The player, The Latin and the golden boy. The player was my instant rebound. He helped me pass many lonely nights and times of missing my first love. The Latin was sweet and saucy and always knew how to make me feel like a thousand bucks. The golden boy, he is the perfect one, the one that makes me want to be better. He is the one that i wanted above them all. But there my summer went, dating every night. Three dates a day was rare but possible. I was a busy girl . And unlike all my fellow comrades at byui no commitment was needed. It was a good summer. But of coarse summer had to come to an end. By the end of summer i was head over heals for the golden boy. Who of course he is clueless of how to act around me. Which of course makes him that much more adorable.

Anyways the point of my blog tonight is supposed to be about the dating habits here in rexburg. A normal rexburg relationship goes as follows. The couple meets, the go on their first date. They see each other everyday afterwords. they are boyfriend and girlfriend by Saturday. They date for less than a month and are engaged by the end of the month. It is insane. It is almost worse than the reproduction of rabbits. 

So then girls like me and my roommate arrive and throw off the norm. Girls like us are dangerous. We are single and loving it. (secretly we are hurt and terrified of being in serious relationships again because of the possibility of our hearts being shattered.) But to everyone else we are fierce women and if you mess around with us you might get burnt. My roommate just had an experience where a nice boy showed interest in her. The night she kissed him she deiced he was more of a friend than anything else. What is she considered now in his eyes? A slut, floozy, tramp. take your pick. What is she really doing? keeping her options open. for heaven's sake we live in the dating capital of the world. Boys are knocking down our doors. why settle?

But to be honest with you I miss it. I miss being in love. I miss caring for someone more than you care for yourself. I miss someone one holding me because they love me and not just because it feels good. But for the rest of the world i put up a face. I pretend I am a man eater with very little cares of too whom i step on. When will i open my heart again to let love in? who knows. Maybe I will meet someone with a giant chainsaw who will cut down the walls around my heart. 

Converting to the dark side? I think not...

Well here it goes, its almost two in the morning and i just decided to start a blog. It just hit me that I am going to school for Journalism and I really don't write more than the average college student. So i decided to to convert to the dark side of journalism... BLOGGING! ( insert the bum bum bum here) So here is a little about my life. I am a twenty year old college student living in Rexburg, Idaho. And yes I know you are asking yourself why a young college student from beautiful sunny california would move to the frozen tundra we call Iceburg? Well it's simple BYU-Idaho is amazing. To explain all the reasons why would take up a whole different blog so we will just leave it at that. I am a middle child and I feel that being the middle child has greatly affected the way I see life around me. I come from a family of five children, in Idaho that is a pretty average family, small if anything. In California that is a lot of kids. But i loved every minute growing up with my three sisters and one brother. Even when i wanted to kill them :) Well the night is quickly passing and my comfy bed is beckoning  all the way from my bedroom. So i must go appease the call of mi cama and hit the sheets. Until next time  the darkness still awaits.