Let me explain to you my dating life since my attendance here at the lovely byui. To start off I moved to Rexburg after a guy. I know that is a very lame excuse but it is my story. I fell in love with a boy from Georgia in the summer of 07. When we became separated at the end of the summer I was determined to follow him wherever he might go. I applied to byui and was accepted. I was up in Rexburg by Jan 08. It was quick but it was the determination fueled by young love that made everything fall into place. After ariving in rexburg I shortly noticed that there was a common trend that floated around all the advertisements in rexburg. ENGAGEMENT RING ADDS. Me and my current lover had talked multiple times about marriage and being in this new land of happily ever after made my imagination run wild. I dreamed and dreamed about how he was going to purpose. Each day someone new would ask me, has purposed yet and the answer was always no. Finally after a very awkward valentine's day and another month that followed my first love left my life permanently.
Fast forward to July of 08. I finally started dating again. This time with a 12 foot wall around my heart protecting it from all damage. My summer shortly became one to remember. I was still recovering from a broken heart and i was ready to get out there and be the heart breaker i had grown up as. I started dating three boys. The player, The Latin and the golden boy. The player was my instant rebound. He helped me pass many lonely nights and times of missing my first love. The Latin was sweet and saucy and always knew how to make me feel like a thousand bucks. The golden boy, he is the perfect one, the one that makes me want to be better. He is the one that i wanted above them all. But there my summer went, dating every night. Three dates a day was rare but possible. I was a busy girl . And unlike all my fellow comrades at byui no commitment was needed. It was a good summer. But of coarse summer had to come to an end. By the end of summer i was head over heals for the golden boy. Who of course he is clueless of how to act around me. Which of course makes him that much more adorable.
Anyways the point of my blog tonight is supposed to be about the dating habits here in rexburg. A normal rexburg relationship goes as follows. The couple meets, the go on their first date. They see each other everyday afterwords. they are boyfriend and girlfriend by Saturday. They date for less than a month and are engaged by the end of the month. It is insane. It is almost worse than the reproduction of rabbits.
So then girls like me and my roommate arrive and throw off the norm. Girls like us are dangerous. We are single and loving it. (secretly we are hurt and terrified of being in serious relationships again because of the possibility of our hearts being shattered.) But to everyone else we are fierce women and if you mess around with us you might get burnt. My roommate just had an experience where a nice boy showed interest in her. The night she kissed him she deiced he was more of a friend than anything else. What is she considered now in his eyes? A slut, floozy, tramp. take your pick. What is she really doing? keeping her options open. for heaven's sake we live in the dating capital of the world. Boys are knocking down our doors. why settle?
But to be honest with you I miss it. I miss being in love. I miss caring for someone more than you care for yourself. I miss someone one holding me because they love me and not just because it feels good. But for the rest of the world i put up a face. I pretend I am a man eater with very little cares of too whom i step on. When will i open my heart again to let love in? who knows. Maybe I will meet someone with a giant chainsaw who will cut down the walls around my heart.
